Please, don't anyone be afraid to post back with an idea, no matter how idiotic you think it is.
Lately i've just felt empty...dead...like a shell, I felt like i've been living a lie, even though I'm not, I'm completely honest with everyone...My emotions feel numb...but...more...burnt out...Like i've hurt so much I can no longer comprehend pain...I feel like nothing's even real anymore...as easily as I can touch out and reach a keyboard, it just...doesnt feel real, I don't know why, I don't even know if any of this is real, or if I'm actually typing to someone...I just...feel like i'm in a neverending dream I guess...I think i've heard it called the matrix syndrome or somethign like that, but screw that, I just feel like i've been in a haze for a while now...when I try to think, everythings clouded, and i have no concentration, patience, or attention span anymore...I just don't really care... I used to be an alcoholic, but I have been sober from alcohol for nearly 2 years, It is not that. I have Done several drugs once, The only "drug" that i ever did regularily was smoke pot, But I have been sober from pot for quite some time now, I quit smoking cigarettes about 6 months ago, i quit cold turkey after 4 years....I've completely cleaned up my life, I'm still a lot bigger then I want to be, but the docs say that the way my body and muscle structure is built, is that I will never. Never. get any skinnier, and I've accepted that, even if my girlfriend hasn't...I'm healthier now then ever, and i've cleaned my life up...but now everything just feels so unreal...and it feels like nothing I do has a meaning anymore...i dont know, I don't even know why im typing this, But yeah...any suggestions, no matter how idiotic, please post them
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
What grade are you in? Do you have a job, if so what is it? what job do you want to have? Do you wanna do, or are you, doing college? How're things with girlfriend How are things with your friends Think about your social life, how foten do you hang with friends? Alot more info needed
What grade are you in? Do you have a job, if so what is it? what job do you want to have? Do you wanna do, or are you, doing college? How're things with girlfriend How are things with your friends Think about your social life, how foten do you hang with friends? Alot more info needed
In order...
Suppose to be home schooled, mom hasn't taught me anything in over 5 years, bt my test scores say im in collage level because i teach myself.
I don't have a job, my mother WONT ALLOW me to get a job, and if it matters, I'm 16
I want to have any job, but I'm not allowed
I don't want to do college, probably never will
Fine, I guess..It's a really difficult story with her
Hah...besides Remona, and 2 others on my MSN? What friends?
6 months ago at least?
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
Ah, yes, and if it matters, I sleep about 5 hours every 2-3 days...I just have too much **** going on to sleep
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
Well then sleep, go out more, talk with your friends, hook up with some on facebook and jsut go out and hang with someone! Also, get more sleep, other then that, the rest of its jsut life in itself, its my advice
I don't have friends to go hang out with, and i'm not going and meeting random people on the internet, Lia(my girlfriend) has done it a couple times and I'm a paranoid, I worry about ****ing everything. so yeah, I'm not going to put her through the same worry i go through
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
"Never. get any skinnier, and I've accepted that, even if my girlfriend hasn't..."
You know how I feel about her, as for cleaning your life up, congrats. I'm sorry I didn't reply sooner because I'm trying to sort out a few things myself before things get complicated. As for the fact that you aren't allowed to get a job, I myself just turned 16 and am still TRYING to get a job but...it's harsh. Everyone is highering 17 years olds or people with inside connections.
As for sleep, it doesn't really matter so long as you wake up at the same time everyday, though sleep would do you some good. If not, spend your hours awake not stressing, but focusing on what you can do, and not what you can not do.
If you want, you could possibly get an online job, and start saving up money. Don't bother with spending it, it may pull you into the negative element again. Just be careful where you go online searching for a job.
You're too young to be hung up on these things. I understand that at our age, they are the world to us, but you need to learn to focus on the future, live with the present, and let go of the past. I'm still struggling with it myself, but maybe we could help each other through the tough times. By the sound of it, you're on the brink, a place I've seen alot of friends go to, and never come back. I have alot more friends than I realize sometimes. Even if you just have friends here on the internet, though some may say that internet friends aren't real friends, it's at least a shelter.
Sorry for long post. I have more to say but... I'm scatter brained at the moment.
Well...I just had a very ****ing eventful day...uhm...pretty much...My girlfriend will probably be moving in with me in 2-7 Days...her dad wants her out of the house, and as soon as she gets money for a bus ticket, pretty much, shell be coming up to live with me...so...theres a high chance that Ill stop coming on here after she gets here cause ill be spending all my time with her..
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
The way it's looking is Friday or Saturday she'll be coming up to live with me.
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
I know, and don't worry, I won't be having babies any time soon lol.. My parents are saying and preaching and living with someone your dating is wrong unless your married, so they might force me and her to get married, but she already said she would, and so would I
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
Oh, Yeah...kinda completely against the point of this topic now...I'm feeling a lot better, especially knowing I'll have my Kita
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It's been so long since I could say I've needed Anything Stronger, We can't be wrong when we have ties that bind us. Song of the week: Bodies - Drowning Pool
